Mr. Frahm

Every now and than I feel like Jake needs a little bit more love and attention than I give him. He does A LOT for me every second of the day. No matter what, he is always doing what I ask and when I ask. He is my rock in a hard place. So I just wanted to write him a little love note (what have you) and you are welcome to read it, but its just gay mushy crap.

Dear Jakey,

Uhm hi. I love you. Mmmm k? I have wanted to write this little note to you for about two weeks now, but life happens and I kept forgetting and than other things came up. But I think it's SO important you know how much I appreciate you and love you. Especially now in our lives when its just you and me taking on the world together. What inspired this? Well, a couple weekends ago when we were sitting on the couch talking, we were talking about some peoples lives and how they have no one and I just remember thinking I am so glad I have my eternal companion. The idea of spending eternity with you gets me so giddy inside. Don't get me wrong some days you can be a pain in me arsh. But I love you for it none the less. Jacob we have already been through so much together and some days I feel as if I am overwhelmed and can't handle it. All you have to do is take me in your arms and I forget for a little while that life just sucks sometimes. Mr. Frahm, people still tell me to this day, "I never pictured you with someone like Jake." But the more I think about it, the more sense it makes to me. You literally are my missing puzzle piece, the pepper to my salt. Your my better half. It doesn't need to make sense to anyone cause it makes the most sense than anything else in my life. I want you to know, that it meant the entire world to me when you started to get super serious and a little choked up and said I will be an incredible mom. It filled me with so much joy and happiness. It's my one huge dream to be that and hearing it from the man I need to hear it from the most shot me to the moon. I love that you surprise me with little gifts. Or sometimes larger gifts. It sounds so vain but they really show me more that you love. (Especially coming from the guy who hates to spend money). Jake you treat me like a queen and I forget sometimes how EXTREMELY lucky I am to have found you. I am sorry. Sorry that sometimes I can be a royal beotch. Sorry that I sometimes don't put you up at my top priority and become selfish. Just know I am trying EVERY single day. I want to be the ultimate wife, and its hard. Cause somedays I don't feel up to it, and other days I don't want to give you what you need. But I know we will get the hang of this marriage thing. One day. I guess in a long and round about way, I am just saying, I LOVE YOU! Like mad. I love you so much! I honestly would be "homesick" without you ;). Love you Mr. Frahm, thanks for making me your gal!

Love,

Mrs. Frahm

Back to Square {1}

Jake took his second semen analysis test almost a week and a half ago. They told us we would hear results back within the next week. Well that week passed and we had not heard a thing. But life happened and I got super busy and forgot about it, till my sister called me to ask if I had known the results yesterday. It hit me that I never got a call. So today I called them to find out that there were some concerning results. Which the Dr. had told me in my original consult that there were some concerning results earlier but he didn't trust that semen analysis 100%.

So here were the tests as follows (some of if wont make sense):

Element:                 Result:      Normal Value:

Volume                    0.9             1.5

Concentration           7.5             15

Total Sperm Count   6.75million  39 million 

Motility                     49%           40%

Total Motile Count    3.31           9 million

Progression               2.0             2.5

Morphology              11%           15%

Intrepretation:

Volume-Very Low

Concentration-Very Low

Motility (poor swimmers)-Normal

Morphology (abnormally shaped)-Low

Recommended:

IVF (In vitro Fertilization)  or ICSI (Intra Cytoplasmic Sperm Injection)

Now that was just what the lab report says. I talked with the nurse and she wants me to still do my blood work and ultrasounds and than we wait for the results and than consult with the Dr. on our options. I am a little nervous with the results but happy for answers. I do feel like were starting over...again. But lets hope the Dr. has some positive plans for us. :)

I Did Not..

This post is not your usual posts. This post is complete with some pictures of thoughts and things I did this past week that people would respond "You DID not REALLY do that" well guess what kids I did!

I did NOT sob my little eyes out watching the Adoption Special on 16 and Pregnant

I did NOT  teach my primary kids the wrong song at the beginning of the month and than ended up teaching them the right song at the END of the month.

I did NOT ask to watch Ashton for a whole day. From 10:30 till 10. Yep Basically 12 hours kids.

(but isn't he the cutest thing ever?)

I did NOT send this horrid picture of me waxing my upper lip to my husband. I'm a sexy beast what can I say?

I did NOT  spend 47.65+ on random jewelry, clothes, and shoes on myself in the past week. Uh oh.

I did NOT fail my fraction math test for the second time. And instead of getting 40% I got 35% AWESOME!

I did NOT spend all of Tuesday in the bathroom with the shi shi's. I love bum flu!

Well that's all the things I did NOT do the past week! Enjoy. 

Stay tuned for a secret that have for all ya'll! Its exciting!

Fertility Visit.

Last Thurs. (Valentines) I had an appt. with the Fertility Dr. We decided it was time again to get back in the swing of things and trying to get pregnant. I was kind of stressing over which fertility place we were supposed to go to. I had so many people suggest places they liked and what worked for them and I had narrowed it down to 2 places. The Reproductive Care Center and Utah Fertility Clinic. Their had been pro's and con's to both. But it wasn't until my friend had told me that she had been on the phone multiple times with just the receptionist and hung up crying with Utah Fertility Clinic that I knew that was NOT the place for me. 

I made my appointment and felt really excited and nervous to see what would happen. When I made my appointment the receptionist was OVERLY friendly. I was excited to see what would happen. When I also made the appointment we also started to look into adoption agencies. We feel like adopting and infertility can both take some time, so why not kill two birds with one stone and try both? We are still looking into adoption agencies and have been slightly discouraged with what we have found. So that is kind of on the back burner in our life.

Anyways... I went in that morning and I was slightly nervous. I had no idea what to expect. Everyone though was extremely nice, which to me is a HUGE deal. They called my name and walked me back into the nurses area. I thought for sure they were going to take me into an exam room. But I ended up being led to a THE Dr's actual office. I felt pretty important. Which i think is a really good thing. I met with Dr. Harry Hatasaka. Who is incredible. He asked me questions and talked to me like a friend rather than some little girl who is trying to get pregnant. We sat and just talked in his office for at least an hour. He told me all the steps we would take and explained everything into great detail. He made me very happy and hopeful. I honestly felt like in that hour I could trust this man with my life. He also wanted to make sure we tried all the simple, easy, inexpensive tests before we jump into anything crazy which I love. 

Overall it was such a great experience. In the next couple months Jake and I will be doing 3 tests that will help determine some underlying issues (if any).

1. Jake goes in for yet another Semen Analysis Test

After Jake takes his test and we see his results I go in for my testing.

2. I get blood work drawn and some inexpensive genetic testing

3. We ultrasound my uterus area and anything to do with fertility.

Ultimately I am not an any rush. We are happy to be at a place we love and trust. We feel really hopeful and excited about the future. In the mean time, I am nannying the cutest and sweetest little boy on my days off. and playing mom to him. Which is keeping my mind and days very busy. :)

The Best V-day EVER

This year was an exceptionally great Valentines. It was cause Jake spoiled me, or I did 14 days of Valentines. It was the events that happened and the meanings behind them all! But let me start with yes, I did do the 14 days of Valentines. It was very fun, and he loved it.

Day 1: Honey Comb your hair, because we got a date tonight.

Day 2: Life would be unbearable without you!

Day 3: Trying to score "brownie points" from you (plus his favorite treat)

Day 4: Thank you for your "ade" whenever I need it!

Day 5: You are one hot tamale

Day 6: You have "ofishally" stolen my heart. (this is the day I started making homemade cards that are slightly inappropriate :))

Day 7: I would be so "mixed" up without you

Day 8 and 9: Thanks for "sticking" by my side. We make a great "combo"

Day 10: We were "mint" to be together

Day 11: I'm "nuts" about you! and "I Like You So Much Better When Your Naked"

Day 12: Your the "apple" of my eye. "You. Me. Naked. Now"

Day 13: I think you are "sodamazing" & "Your getting laid tonight. *Unless you forgot to get me flowers"

Day 14: Sent a box of heart attacks that said things I love about him so he could dump it out at work.

I also started watching the sweetest baby ever, named Ashton on Tues and Thurs after school. So I got to spend my V-day with him. 

Later that night we met up at my sister's house, for heart shaped pizza. We all went over there because she was also going to find out the gender of baby she was having. She had the ultrasound tech print off a picture and took it to a baker so we could cut open a cake to find out. It was so fun! Such a fun and clever way to find out!

The cut it open to find out they are having there 3rd girl! They are excited. They do really well with there 2 girls already. Unfortunately their oldest, Irelyn was sure it was a boy. She was so upset to find out that she was wrong and she was getting another little sister. hehe!

My sweet hubby got me the most beautfiul roses I have ever seen. He also got me one of my favorite things, a new purse. I was very spoiled and lucky this year to celebrate my day with the one I love!

We finally ended the night at my parents. Where we anticipated my brother opening his mission call. This was something we were all dreading and so excited for. We are sad cause he is are only brother and 2 years is a LONG time. But we are so incredibly happy that he wants to and is worthy enough to serve the lord. I couldn't look up to him more! We had a map where we all guessed where he was going. My parents invited all of CJ's friends. Family friends, and family to watch him open his call. There were over 40 people there to support CJ it was awesome!

He will be serving in Dallas, Texas spanish speaking. It was such a spiritual thing for the whole family. CJ started sobbing and that brought on the tears for everyone else. He wanted to badly to speak spanish, and he got it. Well come to find out his best friend got his call that same night, right after CJ opened his, his friend called to find out. This is how the convo went:

CJ: "Max I am going to Dallax, Texas, where are you going?"

Max: "I'm going to Dallas, Texas!"

CJ: "I'm spanish speaking"

Max: "CJ, I'm spanish speaking!"

CJ was sobbing at this point and his best friend was too on the other line. It s so crazy how the lord works in mysterious ways. Him and Max both leave the same day! 

It will be a V-day to remember. I loved every bit of it and am grateful for the people in my life, who I love and they love me!

Back in the Game

The crafting game that is. I feel like its been a long while since I crafted or blogged about it! So after our cruise and Christmas I could NOT wait to decorate for Valentines and do some new crafts I had been dying to do.

This one had been on my craft "to do list" for quite some time. And I must say, I am completely smitten with it. Can you be smitten with a piece of paper that says your in love? I believe you can. Literally swoon worthy. I made it in like 5 mins and it was awesome. (PS a few people have asked me to make them one, if you would also like one just shoot me a comment and I would love to make you one!)

Second favorite from my crafts. I found this banner kit at hobby lobby, and it gave me lots of options and what not, but I didn't want to have three banners hanging around my house, than I remembered a door I had seen just like this on pinterest and I was sold. ADOORable right? ;)

These are the two other banners I have hanging around the house. The "love" one is also sitting with a valentines printable.

When I first made this chalkboard it was intended to be for when I was pregnant to take pictures by. But I decided it was too cute to just sit there and do nothing so since the week before Christmas I have been using it for holiday purposes. Fun right?

That is all, till the next Holiday! :)

Lists, LISTS, lists

As of lately Jake and I have created some lists, of things we want to do and accomplish. The first list was inspired by my sister, Jamie. The second list was inspired by the tv show "How I Met Your Mother".

The first list I decided to do around Christmas time. It was right after that awful school shooting, and all those precious lives taken. Ann Curry from the today show posted an idea how we always seem to focus on the shooter and you see his name all over the news, when in reality we need to focus on the lives lost. They were a total of 27 killed including the shooter himself. But since we aren't focusing on him there were 26 lives he took. She decided how neat would it be if we did 26 random acts of kindness in honor of those kids and teachers. My sister Jamie told me about the article and idea and she showed me some of the things she had already done. I was sold. I loved the idea. I didn't make the list however until after Christmas. But I figured I could give service anytime! So here is my first list. (some things are not on the list cause they are private) But I took pictures of the things I have done this far.

26 Acts Of Kindness

1. Leave box of Oreo's for mailman with thank you card

2. Put $5 dollars on a persons windshield

3.Leave 4 quarters on a vending machine

4.Collect carts at Walmart parking lot and put them back

5.Leave a big tip at dinner-we had the BEST waitress, and left her a 100% tip

6.(a secret)

7.Send flowers to someone random

8.Write a letter to someone who changed my life

9.Shovel someone's sidewalk- I shoveled our whole town home section

10.(secret)

11.(secret)

12.Send classroom some supplies

13.Leave a book for someone to read anywhere

14.Leave money on a cup at a gas station for a new drink

15. Leave a $1 and a bag of popcorn at Redbox

16.Leave a random post it note on a bathroom mirror with an uplifting thought

17.Send a pizza to a fire station

18.Ding dong ditch one of my neighbors with a box of ding dongs

19.Leave $1 bills in the toy section

20.Write a cute little note and send it to someone in a diff. state

21.Bring in doughnuts to my coworkers at the hospital

22-26. Hand out 5 suckers to 5 random kids with a balloon

Now for the second list. One day I was watching How I met your Mother and two of the characters are married named Marshall and Lily and they had been trying to get prego for over a year, it was consuming them and making them really upset. (sound familiar) One day they decided to stop thinking about it and enjoy the time they had together and make a list of things they wanted to do before they got pregnant. They called it the "Crib List". A bucket list for pre-baby. I was inspired and we created our own together.

Our Crib List

1. Drive up to Park city just for a few hours and eat at Bandido's

2.Take a random on the spot trip to St. George or Vegas AKA ROAD TRIP

3.Spend an entire day watching movies- we each picked two movies, it was so fun!

4.Partake of all the crazy "Ice Cream" we can, at different places and different times (this is sex people)

5.Travel, Travel, Travel- one place traveled two more to go

6.Go to Montana

7.Accomplish a goal from our "bucket list"- we have already done 3 this year: Go on a cruise, sing karaoke  and save over $10,000.

8.Reach ideal weight

9.Save money

10.Go camping

11. Scrapbook our lives thus far

12.Serve people