2 years later

With every New Years comes another Anniversary for Jake and I. And its been an incredible two years. On January 11, 2011 we got married and as many of you know there have been MANY up's and MANY down's. But to hear how we first fell in love and got so wrapped up in each other go here: How it all began.

Let's begin with the down's so we can get the negatives out of the way.I promise though I have positives for each.

-Therapy. Although it was hard to admit it, we needed this so bad. Our first year of marriage was rough! Which it is for most. But than we got past that and there was still some problems. 8 weeks later, with lots of tears, we are so much stronger. I will say it over and over and over again, EVERYONE should go to at least one therapy session. It will change your marriage for the better. Jake and I hardly fight, we communicate, we are actually truly happy, we are working hard for the other person, their is just SO many things to say that was positive about therapy. But we both always say how glad we are we went.

-School. The dreaded school. This one has been a little biotch. First I failed all my classes, than I did good and there was hope, than I found out I was on probation, than I did another semester and did semi good. But than after that I was suspended. Than I took two semesters off and applied for SLCC. This past semester has been the best college experience ever. Now I think UVU is a piece of a$$.  But I am so happy to be at a school now, where I KNOW I will reach my dreams.

-Jobs. For the first year and a half of our marriage Jake had an okay job. He would get up at 4 to be there at 5. He was getting treated like dirt. His boss only singled out him. He was getting paid mediocre for how hard he worked. This was the cause of a lot of our fighting. Finally we met someone in our ward, who talked about a sales job and Jake perked up. He applied and was offered a job ten minutes after the interview. Can I just tell you how incredible this job has been on our lives and how blessed we are? He is getting paid double what he was paid. His schedule is so nice and easy going. His bosses tell him AT least once a week how much they love him. Just this last week they had a meeting with all their staff, and how they all need to be like Jake and sale as much as him cause he is amazing (it was definitely a proud wife moment that I definitely intend to brag about.) Jake actually gets excited to go to work! So we are feeling so blessed for this job in our lives right now!

-Infertility. Now I have had many posts about this one so I wont ramble on about it. But the positive side that I have seen come from this, is mine and Jake's relationship is so incredibly strong right now. Before it was really good. But now I seriously cant even explain how great we are. We are each others best best friends and we are on the same wave lengths. Its incredible.

In the end their is no one else I could do this with and no one else who could get me like Jake does.

Now the up's! The good stuff over the past two years.

-Dog. When we were only married 5 months Jake finally granted my lifelong wish and got me a dog. It hasn't been easy. But so worth it. Jake loves him more than I do. And we have made some lives pretty happy with this dog.

-Buying and decorating our house together and making it into our home. Our little safe haven. Our town home is such a beautiful place and we are so lucky to live here together. And the memories that go along with every nook and cranny has been our entire marriage.

-All of life's little experiences. Learning to cook for the first time, going on trips together, new callings in our ward, my different hair cuts, learning how to have some really good sex, learning how to have some not really good sex, learning patience. All these things have been so fun and entertaining to do. Especially together.

-Realizing that there may not be such things as soul mates. But I definitely found my perfect match. I reflect on this every now and than and I always come back to how grateful I am that I picked Jake. I am sure the feelings are the same for him. But there are FAR too many times when I am sobbing and in my head I'm saying "you look like an idiot, and the reason your crying makes you sound like an idiot." But Jake doesn't think twice about it, he is always comforting me. He literally is my everything. Some days eternity seems like forever. But most days I couldn't be more happy with the idea of spending forever with the man I love!

Happy Anniversary Hubbie Bum! Love you like CRAZY!

{12} Moments of 2012

1. In January we Celebrated our 1 year anniversary with lots of sex, I mean memories!!

2. I chopped all my hair off into a cute little pixie cut in February.

3. In March, Jake got a new Job at a company called New Horizons Computer Learning Center, making more money, better schedule, and treated much better. It was an all around blessing.

4. In April I attended my first General Conference. It was awesome and so spiritual to be there.

5. In May, we had to retire my little car from high school and we bought me a crossover. Which I still love!

6. June I found out I had tendinitis and had to wear a really cute cling for a week and a half. Unfortunately I still have tendinitis.

7. One of my four best friends brought in the first baby. Baby York, and I can't get enough of him.

8. August we treated ourselves to a BYU football game

9. I went to the Sugarland and Carrie Underwood concert and rocked my socks off!

10. Found out in Oct. I had to get major mouth surgery and looked really sexy

11. Worked my first Holiday on Thanksgiving, wasn't the greatest thing.

12. Started a little side "business" doing something I am passionate about-Shellac nails. 

As I look over this past year of the ups, downs, and everything in between I realize how blessed I am and fortunate to be where I am today. I cannot wait to see what 2013 has in store for us. I have a feeling its going to be big!! 

Resolutions:

1. The infamous "lose weight"

2. Get pregnant

3. Make the best of every day and every situation

4. Go to the temple MUCH more

5. Be happy :)

It's been awhile.

I am having some serious withdrawals from not posting 12 days!! I believe that's the longest I ever went!! Well I"M BACK!!! With lots of pictures of what went down in these past twelve days. Over these days Christmas happened!! Sad its over :( but it means I am that much closer to leaving for my cruise. Which I leave a week from tomorrow! Can you say excited??

I finally finished Jake's stocking about a week before Christmas! I loved the way it turned out for the most part. Plus I was so proud of myself for doing it. I know years to come when we have kids and all the homemade stocking are sitting there I am going to be so happy.

This is our Christmas card we sent out this year. Loved the way it turned out. So if you didn't receive one, I am sending it via Blogger :)

The Tuesday before Christmas my best friends from high school all came over to my house and we had dinner, games, and lots of laughs. It was much needed! We hadn't gotten together in months! It was great!

For Christmas Jake bought me a shellac kit along with colors. I got it two weeks before Christmas and it never made it under the tree for me to unwrap cause I have been using it at least twice a week!

After I started my period I was super bummed out. So I wanted to make myself happy, and Etsy arrived. haha I bought myself these beauties and I am so happy I did! I did put the necklace in my stocking as a stuffer so it worked out!

I put my chalkboard to use for a second time. I really wanted snow, and my wish was granted! :)

Luckily Christmas Eve Day I didn't have to work! We started the day off with Jake grabbing us some Mcdonald's breakfast. He even brought it up into our bed. We had a party that night with Jake's extended family. We got all cute and dressed up for it. After the party we came to our house with Jake's immediate family and opened gifts. We were very spoiled. After everyone left we opened Christmas Jammies. 

We woke up at 6 and drove over to my parents with all presents in tow to start our christmas bright and early. It's also my brothers last Christmas home before his mission. I was very spoiled this Christmas. Jake and I agreed since we were going on the cruise we would only spend $100 on each other. Well my shellac kit ended up being $110 and so I was for sure done. Than my sweet husband surprised me with these Nike's I had been drooling over. THAN he also gave me a brand new purse. I am such a lucky gal. My parents also gave the guys gift cards to Carraba's and bought us all our day pass to Atlantis. Then the sisters opened up a beach bag with flip flops in them! How fun! The last present of the day, was my sister giving my dad a collage of pictures that announced she was PREGNANT!! So my sister will be having grandbaby #10 in August. Exciting stuff.

Since Christmas eve on, the snow has poured over here in Lehi. And I am soaking up all of it! I am in pure heaven.

Well that's us the last two weeks! Christmas was excellent and now were just preparing for out cruise in one week! YAY

A literal Christmas {break}

Is it just me or are Sunday's like THE days to feel so emotional and so uplifted spiritually and mentally. I feel like I usually break down on Sunday's and start my goals for the week and how it will be better, on Sundays. Which is what I should be doing as a LDS member. Today, I was feeling lots of emotions.

I was injected with the HCG about 2 and a half weeks ago. Exactly a week later I was feeling nauseated every single morning. By day 5 of nausea I was feeling it 24/7 and I was sure that I was pregnant. But I felt doubtful cause I technically would only have been 3 weeks. Well it was Friday, and I was supposed to start my period that next day. I woke up feeling sicker than ever and didn't feel like eating but I was also starting to get a cold. Sucky! But I was sure that I was pregnant. Well that night like usual I started my period. I started to cry like usual. It just sucks sometimes. Jake was at work so I just text him and told him "I'm sorry, but I started my period" Like the great husband he is he told me, it didn't matter and that he loved me and I was his everything. I called my mom cause I just wanted someone to talk to. She instantly knew. This month wasn't as hard as it has been, in the past. But I was still distraught, emotional, and upset. Jake and I had decided 4 weeks before when we were starting our 3rd round of chlomid that if we weren't pregnant this month that we would take a break from trying so hard and just LIVE! This has been the hardest part for me this month. I slightly feel like I am giving up. Not a lot just a little. Like what if this would be the month. But I figure if my savior wanted it to happen it would. And I know WE NEED this break. I don't know how long it will be or what we will do when we come back but I know, it will be good for us in the end.

People ask me how I have been doing since Friday, and to be honest. Not great. But not the worse I have ever been. Today, I have cried about it the most. But I feel like I am giving myself this one last day, and this one last blog post about my infertility till we start trying again. Just one last time to let it out how sucky this is and how life is going for us. So no more emotional and annoying posts about what has consumed me for the past 18 months. I am so emotional right now, but I feel okay today. And spiritually fed. After this moment I am excited for what is to come for me. For my relationship with Jake. For our lives. And mostly for my relationship with my savior. Jake and I are literally making a list of all the things we want to do before we have kids. Life is funny the way it works sometimes. But I am grateful for the person I am becoming and the way my life is changing. I am grateful to know I have a husband, who is such a rock and loves me unconditionally. I am grateful for Jesus Christ who suffered for me, and knows EXACTLY what I am going through and loves me also unconditionally. I know my heavenly Father will grant all my righteous desires and has some amazing plan for us!

I am grateful for all of you who read these ridiculous posts! and have shown me so much love! I love you all!! Thanks for everything! Goodnight and AMEN!

A moment to brag...

I haven't had something really amazing happen in awhile and this to me was like almost as good as finding out  I was pregnant (not QUITE as good but just about). As we know I have struggled with school for the past 2 years with college. With figuring out nursing school. With grades. With tests. With just about everything!

But since I started school at SLCC my school life has taken a complete turn for the best! I loved school this semester and I excelled at all I could in every single class! So when finals came up of course I was slightly stressed but I felt pretty good about this semester. Well tonight when I went on to take my second and last final I decided to check my grades for my Nutrition class to see if he had posted my grade since I had taken the final last Thursday, this is what I found:

I just started crying. I was so overwhelmingly happy. I could not honestly believe that I got an A-. I didn't even think I could get an A at all! And my GPA hadn't been that high since high school. I just felt so so so proud of myself. 

That's all. I am amazing! Now I wait for my second grade :)

It's the Holiday Season

Which is why I am SO busy! Between finals, Bunco, and Christmas I have been going, going, going!

We celebrated two Birthdays in November. First we celebrated my nephew Hunters Birthday. Than a month later on December 1st he got baptized. It was weird to me that I have a nephew that I remember holding being baptized. But he look so stinkin cute in his suit!

Jake's Oma Frahm turned 80! So the entire extended Frahm family got together at her favorite Golden Corral to celebrate. She is such a feisty gal! I love her for it thought!

I have also been trying to carve off all the sugar I have been eating by exercising and eating better. My sister was so kind and loaned out her 30 day shred to us. It's killer, especially since I haven't worked out for a year or longer. I have somewhat enjoyed it though.

Unfortunately, I also started finals these past two weeks. So I was trying to study and some days I didn't make time for 30 day shred. And one night when I was studying extra long, my sweet hubbie brought me my favorite treat...what do you do? :)

As I have stated before I love love love to paint my nails, so of course my favorite holiday doesn't come without some festive nails. 

Than to add to the holiday stress I had Bunco at my house the same day as finals. But I was so excited to have it at my house for the Christmas Holiday! We started out at Chili's for dinner. Than we came back to my house for (if I do say so myself) the cutest hot chocolate bar! I was thrilled with how it turned out! We than did a gift exchange and I got comfy jammies. Than we played our favorite game of Bunco. I won hostess and got word blocks that said NOEL and an ornament. We stayed up till 3 talking and it was awesome!

Also, today we took our Christmas Card pictures. I was originally going to just take the photos from the pictures we took with my family but I ended up hating them all. But than last night my friend Amie asked if we would tag along and snap some pictures of her family with her nice Camera and she would take some of us! I was sold. It couldn't hurt. So we put on some clothes and they turned out pretty dang cute for how last minute we did it! Here is a sneak peak!