One day at a time

Yesterday I got a call from the fertility place. They had my test results. Which I thought I already knew what the answers were going to be and that I was all good. 

Well they did confirm to me that my ovaries were great and everything was in working order and I didn't have any problems there. SCORE!! Plus if Jake and I were to do IVF (in vitro fertilization) than I have 4-5 eggs that are retrievable each time which is really good! Go me!

Than we got down to the nitty gritty. Turns out my thyroid is low. Not significantly low. Like for an average person I am a-okay but for someone who is trying to conceive I am too low. So they are putting me on a thyroid medication called Levothyroxine. I will take that for 6 weeks and have my blood redrawn and hopefully by than I will have a normally functioning thyroid. 

Than she started telling me about the genetic testing. When I went to my very first fertility appt my Dr told me it was this awesome test that only cost $30 to see if I had any genetic things I would pass on to my children. I decided to take it cause it was only $30 and better safe then sorry. Well turns out I am a carried for Cystic Fibrosis. Uhm...what? Ya that's exactly what I was thinking. So our next step is to have Jake tested and see if he also is a carrier. If he is than we have a 1 in 4 or 25% chance of conceiving a child with this genetic disorder. GO FRAHMS!! 

So were praying Jake doesn't carry it. Were praying that my thyroid rises. Were praying that we figure out how to have a baby and one day soon conceive. I have done really well. I haven't had any melt downs or heartaches for months. Until... last night. It all came down on me and it still is lingering. But I'm trying to keep my chin up. Here's to one day at a time!

Baby Girl's are a "Whoot"

A week ago I threw a shower for a cute little gal in my ward. I am the primary chorister and she is the pianist. We chat and chat and I had found out she was pregnant. I had asked her if she was ready and she said she didn't have a lot of stuff and she really needed it. I than asked if she was going to have a shower. She said no. I than of course offered. Because A) I love parties B) I love to plan parties and C) I love babies. She blew it off but I am stubborn and kinda forced it upon her. But I am glad I did it turned out so good!

The theme: "Look Whooo's having a girl"

Obviously owls was the main idea. I had my friend Amie help me out too. And I loved how everything turned out.

This was the darling invitation. I loved how it turned out.

Her bedroom colors are Lavender, Aqua, Pink, and Gray, so we did the shower theme in those cute colors. 

The food was so delicious. The cupcakes were my favorite part, they were SO easy and turned out SO cute!

Than I wanted to go with a cute foresty (is that even a word? Well it is now!) theme. But still keep it cute. So I did tree branches as the main decor and had the color coordinating pom poms hanging from it. Than on one tree I had a words of wisdom thing were you could also tie them to the branches. (since owls are wise eh?) 

And of course I had the chalkboard sitting there doing its thang. 

We ate this nummy fruity salad made by Amie. I made raspberry cheesecake bars, and the cupcakes. We had a bowl full of cadbury eggs, and fruit skewers with fruit dip. Than I made a delicious punch.

I am so glad I did it. The mom to be was so overjoyed and thankful! It made the entire night worth it. 

Mr. Frahm

Every now and than I feel like Jake needs a little bit more love and attention than I give him. He does A LOT for me every second of the day. No matter what, he is always doing what I ask and when I ask. He is my rock in a hard place. So I just wanted to write him a little love note (what have you) and you are welcome to read it, but its just gay mushy crap.

Dear Jakey,

Uhm hi. I love you. Mmmm k? I have wanted to write this little note to you for about two weeks now, but life happens and I kept forgetting and than other things came up. But I think it's SO important you know how much I appreciate you and love you. Especially now in our lives when its just you and me taking on the world together. What inspired this? Well, a couple weekends ago when we were sitting on the couch talking, we were talking about some peoples lives and how they have no one and I just remember thinking I am so glad I have my eternal companion. The idea of spending eternity with you gets me so giddy inside. Don't get me wrong some days you can be a pain in me arsh. But I love you for it none the less. Jacob we have already been through so much together and some days I feel as if I am overwhelmed and can't handle it. All you have to do is take me in your arms and I forget for a little while that life just sucks sometimes. Mr. Frahm, people still tell me to this day, "I never pictured you with someone like Jake." But the more I think about it, the more sense it makes to me. You literally are my missing puzzle piece, the pepper to my salt. Your my better half. It doesn't need to make sense to anyone cause it makes the most sense than anything else in my life. I want you to know, that it meant the entire world to me when you started to get super serious and a little choked up and said I will be an incredible mom. It filled me with so much joy and happiness. It's my one huge dream to be that and hearing it from the man I need to hear it from the most shot me to the moon. I love that you surprise me with little gifts. Or sometimes larger gifts. It sounds so vain but they really show me more that you love. (Especially coming from the guy who hates to spend money). Jake you treat me like a queen and I forget sometimes how EXTREMELY lucky I am to have found you. I am sorry. Sorry that sometimes I can be a royal beotch. Sorry that I sometimes don't put you up at my top priority and become selfish. Just know I am trying EVERY single day. I want to be the ultimate wife, and its hard. Cause somedays I don't feel up to it, and other days I don't want to give you what you need. But I know we will get the hang of this marriage thing. One day. I guess in a long and round about way, I am just saying, I LOVE YOU! Like mad. I love you so much! I honestly would be "homesick" without you ;). Love you Mr. Frahm, thanks for making me your gal!

Love,

Mrs. Frahm

Back to Square {1}

Jake took his second semen analysis test almost a week and a half ago. They told us we would hear results back within the next week. Well that week passed and we had not heard a thing. But life happened and I got super busy and forgot about it, till my sister called me to ask if I had known the results yesterday. It hit me that I never got a call. So today I called them to find out that there were some concerning results. Which the Dr. had told me in my original consult that there were some concerning results earlier but he didn't trust that semen analysis 100%.

So here were the tests as follows (some of if wont make sense):

Element:                 Result:      Normal Value:

Volume                    0.9             1.5

Concentration           7.5             15

Total Sperm Count   6.75million  39 million 

Motility                     49%           40%

Total Motile Count    3.31           9 million

Progression               2.0             2.5

Morphology              11%           15%

Intrepretation:

Volume-Very Low

Concentration-Very Low

Motility (poor swimmers)-Normal

Morphology (abnormally shaped)-Low

Recommended:

IVF (In vitro Fertilization)  or ICSI (Intra Cytoplasmic Sperm Injection)

Now that was just what the lab report says. I talked with the nurse and she wants me to still do my blood work and ultrasounds and than we wait for the results and than consult with the Dr. on our options. I am a little nervous with the results but happy for answers. I do feel like were starting over...again. But lets hope the Dr. has some positive plans for us. :)