Monday, April 27, 2015

Boston's Nursery Reveal

It's time! I have been talking about it for two months now and its finally here! The big nursery reveal (I feel like I have talked it up so much, so I hope it isn't a disappoinment). I am obsessed. It's literally the exact vision I had in my head, and instead of it coming out kinda like I wanted, it is EXACTLY what I wanted. I will sit in the glider and just stare at it and dream of little Boston and me in here many times. Anywho...drum roll please.....

Panoramic Shot of the room

looking in from his Bedroom Door

Looking from the opposite corner of the Bedroom door

His closet. Its right behind the bedroom door. We have a couple outfits hanging up, and a handful of shoes, and things we will be using in the near future when he arrives. We still need to stock his closet a bit more. That bench will hold his shoes and the drawers will be for excess storage like blankets, diapers and wipes. The top shelf will be for clothes he will be growing into but for now it has the diaper bag, bath and part of the pack and play all of which will be in use once he is here! Yay!

When I first found out I was pregnant, I had found a pin on Pinterest of a boys room in the colors Gray, Burnt Orange, and Creme. I loved the stripes, the colors and how it felt like a boys room without being the usual blue. So I pretty much designed his whole room on one wall of paint. I painted his entire room the gray color, then added the white and one orange stripe. I knew the second I painted his room I was going to be in heaven. Well I was worried about bedding, cause Orange bedding isn't easy to find. I had looked a couple places and then thought "Why not look at Amazon? They could randomly have something." Instantly I saw the bedding that had ALL the colors that I wanted. It was seriously meant to "B" haha (cheesy pun intended). The crib we bought when we adopted Ashton so we already had that. I wanted to have his name or something above his bed, but I didn't want to take away from the stripes. So I decide to go with a big B and it worked out perfectly. All I did was mod podge paper on it and paint it. Viola!

His glider I got when I adopted Ashton, which I surprisngly used with him for quite some time (he had to be snuggled and rocked to sleep). So we had that already. I know crib mobiles are pretty much random and useless but I always wanted to have one for my baby room. I found one that I could make on Pinterest and I actually fell in love. So I made it and it fit in PERFECTLY once again with the room. Now normally it would go above the crib but I wanted to keep the space above his crib simple, so I put it above the glider and it actually worked out quite well. 

The changing "area". We got the dresser from Jake's parents house. They have a plethora of random furniture cause my MIL can't ever get herself to get rid of anything (lucky for me). So I text her one day and asked if she had a dresser that would work for a changing table. My FIL brought this over the next day and I knew it was a match made in heaven. I had to redo it since it was well used and brown. So I painted it with the white I had left over from the stripes on the wall and added new handles and BAM! New changing table. The drawers are deep so its perfect. We use it for his diapers, wipes, socks, onesies, outfits, pajamas, blankets, burp cloths, and bibs. So almost everything. All I need to add is his changing pad, but I found the cute little lamp at Target and then the canister at Hobby Lobby and its filled with binkies. First off it adds decor, and its super convenient. 

Last is the collage above Boston's changing table. Obviously pics will be added after he is born. But I got the arrow from a pack of arrows off of Groopdealz, I found that cute "happy and you know it.." sign at Hobby Lobby and thought it was perfect for the nursery. I repainted the orange, creme, and gray frames to match his room. They we're just frames I had on hand. The creme frame has a saying that I have loved since the day I heard it, and I knew if I ever was able to get pregnant I wanted it up in the nursery.  It says:
"No one else will know the strength of my love for you. After all, you are the only one who knows what my heart beat sounds like from the inside."

And that ladies and gents is Bostons nursery! I freaking love it and can't wait for little man to ACTUALLY get here! 

Sunday, April 26, 2015

"Nobody likes you when you're 23"

Yesterday was my BIRTHDAY! And I turned twenty three!! I will be honest I was not excited for this birthday. I am halfway through my 3rd trimester, uncomfortable, and tired, and I didn't even know what to ask for present wise. (Wo is me right? #firstworldproblems) But my hubbie and family are always so amazing to make my day special and amazing!

On Friday Jake came home with the MOST gorgeous bouquet of flowers I have ever received. My favorite flowers are Gerber Daisies, and the other few flowers that we're mixed in with them we're so perfect. I seriously am obsessed with these flowers and told Jake I wanted to write a poem about them cause I loved them. I didn't but you get the idea!

The next morning I got up and got all cutesy and took our traditional picture with the Balloon Wreath. Then headed to breakfast where I met my mom,dad, and sisters for Kneaders and presents! Yay! My cute mom got me all the scrap-booking stuff that I needed and a GC to Hobby Lobby and and adorable dress that I can wear now and after pregnancy. Then Amy also gave me a GC to hobby lobby. (Jake is very grateful that I won't be spending money there AT least once haha) Jamie gave me an adorable Kimono with earrings which is perfect for me to wear now AND after the babe! Kylie gave me a GC to Target and said its for after I have the babe and she will meet me there one night when I need to escape and she will bring a Swig! Can you say perfect? 

The only thing I wanted the most out of my birthday was a pedicure. First off I can't even bend over to paint them, and I made Jake do it once and it was a disaster. Second off it had been a year since my last one and my feet we're scary. So my sister Amy and Kylie tagged along and it was everything I dreamed of.

I met up with Jake and Ashton who we're running some birthday errands. I met up with them at home where Jake surprised me with a cute bracelet and necklace. (we're also getting our new queen bed) I got the best happy birthday song from Ash and even a kiss! Then we headed out for my favorite cupcakes!

We put Ashton down and we all took naps, which was HEAVEN. Then woke up got ready for dinner. Jake, Ash, and I met up with Naomi for all you can eat sushi! It was freaking delish. I ended the night with going to see Age of Adeline with my mom and Kylie. Then I even got birthday snuggles from Jake. So pretty perfect day!

22 was fabulous, but 23 is going to legen...wait for it...dary! 

Thursday, April 23, 2015

33 Weeks

How far along? 33 Weeks and one day

Weight gain? 25 lbs. I went to the drs yesterday and was completely shocked when it said I had only gained 2 lbs. 

Stretch marks? All around my  belly button.

Sleep? Uhm, sleep is actually decent cause 3rd trimester exhaustion has set in, but getting up to pee at least two times a night now isn't the best.

Best moment this week? We took Maternity pics on Monday and I am DYING to see them!

Miss anything? Not having chronic back pain, and being able to breath and bend over hah

Cravings? Rootbeer again thats mostly it this week

Any Aversions? Cheese products, like quesadillas, mac and cheese

Showing? Is the sky blue?

Belly button in or out? Out and bulging as ever

Wedding ring on or off? Off, bought a cheap one from Walmart that I am wearing now
Happy or Moody?I would say I am emotional this week rather then moody. It takes literally NOTHING to get me to cry

Looking forward to? MY burfday is Saturday, and then next Wednesday is my baby Shower which I am SO stoked for!!

Monday, April 20, 2015

National Infertility Awareness Week

This week is NIAW (National Infertility Awareness Week) and as you know this is a near and dear place to my heart! This June will be four years for Jake and I of suffering through infertility. Through that journey we have been blessed to learn about the blessings of adoption, the sadness of IVF not working, how to bond together through the hardest of times, and of course the blessings of IVF.

When I decided to start opening up about our Infertility I was REALLY nervous. It's such a private thing, and I was worried a lot of people wouldn't understand. But I am SO glad I did. Because through it, I have educated family and friends and of course met so many wonderful people who are suffering through the same thing. Because I became open of my struggle I met people who have changed our journey and I hope I have changed theirs! Anywho... I just wanted to take a moment and go through the beginning to now, to just show that its mother freaking hard, but the end result is a miracle.

My very first post about Infertility go

Our journey at the beginning:

After all those posts ^^ we had been trying to get pregnant for a year and a half. I am so glad I journeled all this though cause it's good to look back at where you have been to see how far you come. Although if I sit and read all those posts I just start to cry cause it was an extremely depressing time, I am glad I have them. Anyways Jake and I found out we would have to go see a fertility dr at that point so we took a break, which I HIGHLY recommend if you go through fertility crap. Take breaks, its good for the soul, body, and mind.

I wanted to share this picture cause it still means so much to me even after all this time. My sweet sisters, who are my best friends, had a bouquet of flowers sent to my home after chlomid failed again. It was so simple but I loved it so much!

You guys god works in mysterious ways...because after that on New Years Eve we met....Ashton. And you can read all about our journey with Ashton in the tab "Our Adoption Story".

Now these pics may not look like much,  but it was the night we met Ash, so they are special to me even though we didn't necessarily get one with him.
Jake's first pic with Ashton
my first picture and the day we started to tend him
our first pic together as the three amigos

During this time I was unsure if we would get Ashton and how things would work out, so we decided to start seeing fertility Dr's. We kinda went shopping. This was our first fertility visit with the second fertility Dr

Found out that Jake had a sperm inconsistencies even though the first fertility Dr said he was fine
It was after this appointment that we found out we would most likely HAVE to do IVF to try and conceive a baby. But we could look at a couple options.

Then a month later we found out I am a carrier for Cystic Fibrosis, which is scary but luckily Jake was not so we we're in the clear.

Life was hard again, but once again, God has AN INCREDIBLE plan for each of us and ours was just beginning. April came around and we found out that we could adopt Ashton.
The picture we used to announce we we're adopting!

Life was incredible!! And I became a mom and it was even better then I could imagine. We once again focused on being parents to this incredible little boy and took a break from fertility stuff. 
These are some pics of our time together:

Ashton turned one!

So much happened which you can go back and read on my blog over all those months what we did. But we we're so blessed. Then September rolled around and we decided to start looking into how to get Ashton a sibling. We didn't know at the time if we wanted to adopt again or continue with a Fertility Dr. So we decided to pray about it, and both of us felt like we should try to continue to get pregnant. So at this time Ashton was a little over One years old and we had been trying over 2 years. We went back to the Dr in Sept:
It was officially confirmed at this appt our only option was IVF. No other option would be worth wasting the money or time. It sucked. I was stressed about money options, and what to do. But once again I am SO grateful I was open about our Fertility journey because after this post I had a comment that referred me to East Bay Fertility Center.

So at the end of October we met with a new fertility Dr and it was our perfect fit!

Then November rolled around and it had been six months since we adopted Ashton and since we live in the state of Utah it meant we could legally adopt him! 

Then a week or so later we we're sealed to him in the Provo Temple.

Still one of the happiest days of my life.

Then at the end of December we started IVF. I didn't openly blog about this at the time because I didn't want people to know if it failed or succeeded. But I did keep a personal journal of it and took pics so I will post those lovely pics here. Some of these are embarrassing but I just have to take you through what IVF looks like.
First set of drugs

All my injection scars

WAY too many Vaginal Ultrasounds

Implanting of the eggs

High as a kite

My rock through it all

One of our Embryo's

My amazing sister who injected me every time

the size of the needles

Second round of medications

being injected DAILY

Just one bill for medications

This round of IVF started Dec. 24. But in the middle of January we had to stop cause my ovaries weren't cooperating. So we started over AGAIN in February. As you know February came with some disappointing news

No baby. It was one of the hardest days of my life. But it brought new things. I found out I had immune deficiency and in the future would need to do a procedure called IVIG. We decided to move. I decided to do something for me and my body, so I lost weight and ran a half marathon. Ashton got older which is now a blessing! I also realized how many people in my life loved me and supported me.
So we took a break and moved into our home. I told Jake that I was ready to begin trying again once we got settled in. August I went back to the Dr and he said the process wouldn't be nearly as extensive as last time but we would still do a lot. We started in September.

I came back to the blogging world and instead of keeping this round a secret I was open during the ENTIRE process. These posts are all about IVF/FET round two.
The day I did IVIG I sent my sister a pic and it stemmed the most amazing pictures I have recieved look at those here:

On Oct. 2 I got the call that I was officially pregnant! 3.5 weeks later we went in for an ultrasound to find out we we're expecting Identical Twins. I never thought the day would come where we would be pregnant.

Then I found out I lost one :( Extremely hard, but I still had one healthy fetus.

And NOW: Here I am almost 33 weeks pregnant with a healthy baby boy!

You guys, the journey has been a rough one, but such an incredible one. I know that its been worth it. My heart aches for those going through it right now but if you ever need anyone to talk to I am open and happy to chat. 

This week is important to me, cause there are so many suffering that feel alone and like no one gets it. But that's what amazing is I have found so many people that have gone through the same things as me and there are so many resources! YOU ARE NOT ALONE! Another reason is Infertility is not a common knowledge thing, there are so many people out there who DON'T know what it takes for a lot of women to get pregnant and I feel like its SO important. 

I want to refer you to a blog that has been really neat to follow and read about Infertility take a look sometime cause the ladies who run it are AMAZING!

I love you all! Thanks for following my family and I on our Journey! MUAH loves!