Saturday, February 28, 2015

25 Weeks

How far along? 25 Weeks and 3 days

Weight gain? 16 whole lbs. woah momma ;) 

Maternity Clothes? Yes. I have been looking on Pinterest for outfit ideas, cause I feel like I repeat things over and over.

Stretch marks? Negative. They are going to creep up come third trimester.

Sleep? When I read all these articles they say third trimester is when sleep gets rough. Well for Jenessa, its been since 13 weeks. So don't listen to what "they" say.

Best moment this week? Getting Boston's room ready. Its becoming more real. And I am giddy with excitement.

Miss anything?Well, I really try to be positive and not complain. But I just am excited to feel 100% normal again in 3 months. 

Cravings? The usual. Salads. French Fries. And lately smoothies and ice cream.

Any Aversions? Milk, Pasta, hamburgers. Also the usual

Showing? Oh yes sir-ee. I just keep pushing that belly out. It can only go out. By the end of my pregnancy my belly will reach the other end of the chalkboard.

Belly button in or out? The last couple days, its about to come makes me nervous haha

Wedding ring on or off? Still rocking it strong

Happy or Moody? Uh, I feel like a little moody, but not as bad as some weeks

Looking forward to? Possibly painting the babies room this week?

Monday, February 23, 2015

Thoughts on Infertility, Pregnancy, and other Ramblings

I have been thinking about writing something like this lately but kept going back and forth on the ideas. But now I have so many random thoughts on pregnancy and such I figured I would just write one big random post. Now this post is mostly for journal purposes so don't feel obligated to read (especially since this blog has turned into straight up pregnancy postings and that can be overdone real fast).

When we first found out we we're pregnant I can't explain the feelings. Was this real life? It felt like our time but I had been feeling that way for the past year. So when I finally saw those two pink lines for the first time in my life, the happiness is something I still get giddy about. I had never seen a positive pregnancy test in our 3.5 years of trying. I still get little butterflies in my tummy and a big smile spreads across my face when I think about it. But the funny thing is, I even remember thinking at that moment, if this is the only positive I ever see again I will still feel so happy. Just that God even blessed us with that one little bright light was great.

NOW here I am more than halfway through this miracle pregnancy and I just want to talk about the now. This is for those that still read my blog that may be going through infertility or some trial that you may feel like the end is never near. I saw some dark days through our 3.5 years and I may see more to come in the future when we try to have more children. I never thought I would be able to carry my own children, or that I would have any for that matter. Ashton changed that all. (but thats a whole other blog post ;)) Although it has been the hardest trial that I have faced or yet to face, just know that its ALL been WORTH IT. Its hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, especially when the tunnel is pitch black and you feel like you have been walking in that dark tunnel for quite some time. But as a person who has been there, its worth it. Every tear, bad day, bad news, failed attempt, was all worth it. Without it I wouldn't ever have my little Ash Man. And if I didn't keep fighting like hell to get what I wanted, I would never have known what its like to carry a little miracle. The moral of the whole story is keep pushing, cause I PROMISE the bigger picture is so much better then you imagined.

Okay now onto the next random thoughts in this scatter brained head of mine. Let's talk pregnancy. Although my first trimester and a little bit of my second I literally never thought I would feel better again. Pregnancy has not been easy. But its the most amazing thing. I tell Jake all the time I wish he could feel for just a second I am feeling cause its the craziest and neatest thing. It really is a miracle once you sit and really think about it, what is happening. When I first felt him kick It made everything so real and so right. Then last week I was sitting on the couch and I saw this movement in my belly out of the corner of my eye. When I looked down to see I realized it was his kicks. I could literally see them for the first time and once again It was the neatest and craziest thing. Then just tonight I felt something hard sticking out of my stomach so I pushed on it, and then he came up and kicked where my hand pushed and I felt his foot. I legitimately squealed. I was so happy. I still can't believe what a blessing and miracle this whole thing is. I am so grateful that I get to experience it. Even on the really crappy days.

Okay last random thought. Body image. I think pregnancy is so beautiful (cheesy right?). And of course I have dealt with my fair share already of "wow my tummy is getting big" or "man my thighs have started getting chubbier". But honestly at the end of the day I feel so confident and beautiful. (Not to toot my own horn). But I am well aware, my belly is bigger then some and I am well aware, that everything else is going to get larger. But from the beginning till now most days I have sincerely felt beautiful. And I love that. I don't know if losing a bunch of weight and finding a confident me before is the reason, whatever it is I will take it! 

Okay I am done! Thanks for sticking with me and my random thoughts! 
Love you, MUAH!

Thursday, February 19, 2015

24 Weeks

How far along? 24 weeks and 1 day

Weight gain? Till the next dr's appt all I know is 10 lbs 

Maternity Clothes? See that belly? You try not wearing maternity clothes and get back to me on how that's not working out

Stretch marks? No not yet, or as far as I can see

Sleep? Let's just say now until my baby is ten I will not get a great nights sleep. Its hard to fall asleep, and if I stay asleep is a miracle.

Best moment this week? Seeing Boston's kick from the outside of my belly. I looked down and saw this movement and it was so awesome!

Miss anything? Not being sick. I started to get sick again this week. Oh morning sickness.

Cravings? Salads. And pounds and pounds of French Fries

Any Aversions? Milk, I have found that diary is really hard on my belly

Showing? OH BABY yes

Belly button in or out? Still an inny for the time being

Wedding ring on or off? By the end of the day it has to come off.

Happy or Moody? Happy but this week I cried over TV commercials and cheesy moments

Looking forward to? Buying Bostons baby bedding this week

Monday, February 16, 2015

Welcome to The Frahm Abode

I have been wanting to do this post in forever!! A walk through of our new home. We moved back in August and I repainted the entire main floor and then got pregnant and sick so things I wanted to do got put on the back burner. But that's why I also wanted to show what my plans our for future rooms and such!

Okay real quick details about the house just to give you an overview. Its a rambler style home. Two car garage. .28 acres. The upper half is 1500 sq ft. and bottom half is 1500 sq ft. But the bottom is unfinished at the moment. So we have a total of 3 bedrooms 2 bathrooms at the moment. Right now the upper half consists of entry way, family room, dining room, kitchen and pantry, mudroom, laundry room, Master Bedroom, Master Bath, Full bath (kids bath and guest bathroom), two other bedrooms. The basement when we finish it will have a spacious family room/office, two other bedrooms, bathroom and large storage and cold storage. Love this home definitely will be growing our little family here for at least 7-10 years.

This is obviously the front. We have a nice sized front yard and for now just Bushes and plants. But eventually I want to add flowers and have a garden. We have a little front porch space if you can see it. I put a cute black bench there and plan to add pillows in the Spring/Summer.

So the picture on the left was how the entire house was painted. It was all one tone, and it was a really deep tan. After living in our town home and decorating and painting I found out what I liked and didn't like and after painting our entire town home in a tan, I was over it. So when I was looking on good old Pinterest over the 3 years I lived in my town home I always was drawn to the shade "greige" a mix between a grey and beige. Especially the shade by Benjamin Moore "Revere Pewter" all the pictures I had seen I loved. So when we moved in I kinda just went for it and painted our ENTIRE main area and hallways in it, and luckily I LOVED it! I also hated that even the baseboards were tan so I painted every single baseboard in our house white. Which surprisingly takes FOREVER. But after all the work I am in love with it. The picture on the right is the after. It just doesn't do it justice. 

The front entry (ps I took half my pictures during Christmas time so bear with me). Pretty self explanatory. You walk in and either go downstairs to the basement or walk in to our open family room. I still need to paint every door in our house from the tan to the white, and that's my goal before the baby is born. 

(yes that's my half naked son who is watching frozen)
Our family room. Love how open this room is.I love our fireplace and the brick that goes to the ceiling. Ultimately when we finish our basement and move the TV and electronics off the mantel and fire place and just use the mantel as a pretty decorative space. Other than that we won't be doing much more then adding more decorations to the walls and accents of the room. The main color scheme is Light grey, dark grey, and lime greenish. 

So this is the kitchen and dining area. The dining space is perfect for our needs and future needs. Its right off the kitchen and it also leads to the backyard door and on the other side goes to the mudroom. We used to have a tiny little table that sat four people very tightly. We sold that and bought this new black table that I love. It sits 4-6 people comfortably and has a leaf  to add so we can just use the set of four on a regular basis. Pretty much everything is done in here, I keep going back and forth if I want to add a rug or not. Who knows time will tell. 

Obviously most people when they are looking for a home one of their main focuses is the kitchen that was like MY ONLY factor. We would look at pictures of homes and I would be like no. Just based on the kitchen. Its where I am most of the time I want it to be what I want. I wanted a island, that was a big deal to me. And I definitely wanted more cupboard and counter space then my town home. You would be surprised how many kitchens we're the exact same size as my town home kitchen but in a much bigger house. Anyways found this home and the kitchen is exactly what i wanted. Island, way more cupboard space, and even deep drawers. I love the black-splash and the cabinets are really thick sturdy wood. I am slowly adding decorations with 3 different shades of blue and very small amounts of gray. I will show you once I add them. I eventually in years to come want white cupboards but for now i am just loving what I have. Plus lets talk about this pantry. I used to have a small closet size pantry with four shelves. And now I always tell people we could fit like 4 people in here. I just didn't know what to do with myself.

Here is the mudroom. Its between the dining room and garage. The top pic is what its like right now and the bottom pic is my inspiration. So that door (ya the one that is barely painted) leads to the garage. The red and tan was leftover from the previous owners. They also had horse hooves as hooks (ya def not my style.) So I just left it the same color cause I plan to a lot with this room. I want to add bead board like the inspiration picture and have it be white. Then paint thin black and white stripes like so. Then complete the hooks and the decor in gold. With the black and white as the main colors with gold accents. I am so excited for this to happen. Don't know when but its going to be adorable!

This disaster is our laundry room. Its right off the mudroom. Luckily the paint in here is adorable. So for now it works. This room is probably going to be my last room we ever redo. But I know what I for sure want to do eventually is add a pedestal under my washer and dryer. And add a few cupboards to hide all that junk on the shelf. I am not sure what I want to do paint wise or decoration but I have a few ideas. Either Tiffany Blue or a light Coral. Who knows that may change once I get around to it.

Now lets go the other side of the house. This is where we get to bedrooms and bathrooms. This is the guest/kids bathroom. Ashton is showing you around. Pretty simple. We just need to paint a little, dont know what yet and add decor. I have been so slow to add my decor cause I just want it to be perfect. But ya you get the idea.

Down the hall into Ashton's room. Okay notice the pink wall above? Uhm ya that was Ash's room and that ain't gonna fly. We painted his room the second we could. If you read my blog before this room will look like deja vu. I decided to keep Ashtons room the exact same as our town home. I loved it then and wanted to enjoy it more so we just kept it the same. His room is ten times the size as the town home, so a ton more space and his closet is really large too. 

Across the hall way is the second bedroom. For the first few months we we're using it as storage and an office. And then once again pregnancy changed our plans. I was going to put the boys together but decided I wouldn't be sleeping if we put them together so Boston gets this room. We are doing his room in shades of gray with a burnt orange color and creme. (Do you feel like I have gray throughout my entire house? oh wait I do) That picture with the striped wall was my inspiration for the entire room. Then I was searching for bedding and found the most perfect bedding. Then I plan to do a collage of pictures above the changing table and his name above the crib. Then im going to make that cute circle mobile in the colors of the room. I plan on getting started on his room in the next couple weeks.

The master bedroom! Ahh I am so excited to show you this. Obviously a lot needs to be done, but the dream I have for it is whats exciting. So when we first moved in I bought all new bedding. I knew I wanted to do tan, coral, and turquoise. Well I found the most perfect pillows and bedding set and now I am obsessed. I plan to paint the room the color that's on the bedspread (its a really really light tan) and then do stripes on the wall behind our bed in the turquoise pillow. Then for my birthday I am finally going to get a headboard and nightstand for my side. haha its been four years of marriage, I think its about time. I plan to do a cute little timeline/collage of our relationship above our bed and other cute decor later. Our room and Boston's room is on our to do list next so I'm getting excited!

Our master bath. This was my only compromise with the house and it actually hasn't been a bad compromise. In our town home we we're always sharing the counter and it was really tight. So I always wanted a double sink. But then we found out our place only had one sink. But tons of counter space. So its actually worked out fine. Then I wanted a separate tub and shower. Once again, this didn't have it. But it had a soaking tub making the shower feel big. And I am not lying when I say I am in this thing at least once a week since we moved in. I love my tub! So the colors of our bathroom are Navy and Mint. I plan on painting the bathroom a really light mint and do more decor in the navy.  And frame our mirror. So far I love it. Our walk in closet is small but mighty. I need to do a lot more organizing to make it more efficient and clean but it works for our needs.

We LOVE our backyard. I cannot wait for the Spring and Summer cause we will basically live out here. Its huge! The previous owners left us the storage shed and the play set in the sandbox. I can send Ash out there and he will play forever! Our deck is a good size for our grill and sitting. We plan to add a fire pit on the side yard (not pictured) and a trampoline. If you can't find me this spring I will be on the deck with my Diet Pepsi in hand basking in the sun! Only downside is mowing it, but Jake has to do that so it's really actually not a problem hah!

Now our basement. Its completely unfinished. So I saved you the trouble of looking at cement walls and ground. And gave you a floor plan. You go into the basement and it will be all open from the stairs. On the left side of the floor plan there will be our family room and tv area. Then the open area on the right will be a game area and where our office desk and computer will go. The two bedrooms will also be on that with a full bath separating them. Then under the stairs and all that grey/white space is all storage and there is a separate room completely for cold storage. Lots of room to grow and lots and lots of storage!

And that is our home! Thanks for going through the whole thing and now come over for an actual visit anytime! XOXO

Saturday, February 14, 2015

23 Weeks

How far along? 23 Weeks and 3 days

Weight gain? Till the next dr's appt all I know is 10 lbs 

Maternity Clothes? Oh yes, pretty much the only thing I can fit into

Stretch marks? No not yet

Sleep? Yikes. Sleep is rough. And the last two nights I have had allergies that have seriously effected my head, nose, and teeth so sleeping isn't possible.

Best moment this week? We had cute little Valentines today. It was a perfect day with my family and I can't wait to add little Bos to the mix a year from now!

Miss anything? Being comfortable. Being able to bend down. Hah I miss my body a little bit now. 

Cravings? Salads. Literally had it 4 times this week. 

Any Aversions? Pasta. It made me so sick the last weekend.

Showing? Oh yes. My mother pointed out twice how big I have gotten haha

Belly button in or out? Still in but not nearly as a black hole as it used to be.

Wedding ring on or off? By the end of the day it has to come off.

Happy or Moody? I am just a freaking roller coaster. Ah Mood swings

Looking forward to? Starting on Boston's room officially this week

Monday, February 9, 2015

Baja Mexico Cruise

This past week we we're on a Cruise with Jake's family to Catalina Island, CA and Ensenada, MX. It was definitely not what we expected but we made the best of it and it turned out to be a lot of fun!

Day 1-Traveling/Boarding the Ship: We decided to save money and Drive to Long Beach instead of flying. So we left at 10:30 the night before and got into Long Beach around 7:30 and hung around the area till we could board. Once we did we looked around and then started the night off with an amazing meal and show!

Day 2-Day at Sea: This was the only day we had to enjoy the pools on the ship and the sun. Jake played hackie sack while I laid out and read my book and I was in PURE heaven. It definitely wasn't the best weather conditions, but good enough to lay in the sun, and I even got a tiny bit of color. We all met up after for some mini golf.

That night was also our formal night it was so fun! We got all dressed up and ate in incredible meal and all the servers perform. After we went and listened to the band play 80's music and it was so fun. Everyone was party poopers and went to bed except My MIL, BIL, and me so we went and had late night pizza. It was delish!

Day 3-Catalina Island: We thought that at least one of the ports we were getting off of would be a beach, and soon found out neither had beaches and we we're sad. So we figured once we got to the port we would figure it out. Well once we got there we saw how beautiful the city was we decided to rent bikes and ride around the island and it was heavenly! It wasn't too hot and it was the perfect little ride. Then we ate at the local Mexican Restaurant, and went shopping. They had this candy shop that was literally my heaven! And they handmade the taffy and it was magical! 

Day 4-Ensenada: So...I didn't realize this was going to be like sketchy Mexico! haha! You know how there is like beautiful Mexico and then there is sketchy Mexico? Well Ensenada falls into sketchy for sure! Haha we planned on doing the local shopping here. Well we got talked into taking a bus to go deeper into mexico where there is the cheap market and you can barter. But it also has this beautiful lookout and this blowhole that supposedly is the biggest! But anyways, the entire trip I was looking for a floppy black hat maybe with some leopard, a toy for Ashton, and a maxi dress. And I found it! I was so happy! Plus we ate the local taco's which were literally THE BEST I have ever had! And I got to drink out of a pineapple...which is pretty cool!

This was also our last night on the boat :( So naturally I went out with a bang and ate three desserts! WE got to know our table pretty well. And had a lot of fun! It was such a fabulous week and we had a lot of fun! But by the next morning I was ready to get home and see my boy I missed him so much! It was perfect getaway and Jake's family loved it!