Yesterday we had an appointment at the Fertility Dr. It was our first appointment since February or March of this year. When we went in last time Jake was tested and we found out that we may need to start looking at IVF. Well then a month later we surprisingly adopted Ashton. So we put our fertility and trying to conceive on hold. Well Kylie had her little baby Aniston, and we decided we did want a baby sooner. Plus, by the time we would get pregnant and have a baby Ashton will be 2 years plus. So it definitely would be possible.
We made the appt and we went in hoping the best. Anything but IVF. I was hoping medication or a different form of treatment. We went in and they explained that with Jake's semen its too low to do much, but still high enough to definitely conceive with fertility treatments. We were told our chances of conceiving on our own are .05% that was rough. I didn't know until yesterday how slim our chances were on our own. He then gave us only two options of fertility treatments. The first Artificial Insemination. It has a 1-2% chance of working. So not a lot to work with. However it is only 500-600 dollars. At first Jake was thinking he wanted to go through that, but to me it was a waste of time and money. The next and basically only option, was of course IVF. We have a 60% chance and I believe it increases every time. However, it is bloody expensive. It ranges in price from 10,000-28,000 dollars. That is not including meds which are 2,000-5,000 dollars.
I knew in the back of my head since March that this very well could be our path. But it wasn't until yesterday when I heard him officially say and tell us that it hit me. That this is our lot in life. This is the only way we will have children. It just plain and simple...sucked. Sucked ass haha.
We are definitely going to wait a little bit and figure out our finances and take it one day at a time. Right now though I can't tell you how incredibly blessed I feel. First of all, I have my husband who is my strength and is with me every step of the way. He is such a rock, when I am not. He is my literal better half. Then there is Ashton. I think of how incredible this adoption has been and how it all has worked out, and it literally is all because he is supposed to be mine and in my life. And I can't express enough gratitude for that little boy. He is my little miracle. Such an angel. Then but farthest from the least, my Heavenly Father. Who I would be nowhere without. He gave me this life and this trial. And to be honest I look at other peoples trials and I am so grateful for mine. I love my life, and I am very lucky!