New Years {resolutions}

A few weeks before Christmas my mom said she was wanted to rent a cabin for New Years Weekend. Sure enough a week later, she told us she actually got one!


We left Friday at 4 and we headed up to Heber city. We kept driving, and driving, and driving. Finally we came to it. We pulled onto this gravel path than, it turned into a snowy hill that was completely iced over. Neither mine or my sisters car could make it up. We were stuck. Luckily 3 of the other cars were able to get up with no problem at all. So while they took their cars up to get rid of their stuff we sat in our cars trying to entertain ourselves.

Finally the other cars came back and our trip began. We started off the night with pizza, games, and laughter. We stayed up till 2 that night. We woke up that next morning and cooked breakfast. We continued to play games and relax. We all got ready for the day and went down to the Heber to the famous 'Dairy Keen'. It was delicious, as usual. We grabbed a few things and than headed back up. Jake and I took the four wheeler's out for a fun ride, played MORE games and than for dinner everyone brought amazing appetizers to share and meat. We were fed nicely. After dinner we went downstairs and played multiple games of Mafia. So so fun. At 11:45 we got our sparkling cider, hats, crowns, and rattles and watched the ball drop at Midnight. It was perfect and I even got the best new years kiss :) 

With New Years come's resolutions.This year I feel like I have a lot of goals and things I want out of 2012. I am super excited to see what this year brings. Some things in mind are:

-Lose weight healthy

-Put my office together

-Put my laundry room together

-Go on lots of adventures

-Strengthen my testimony

-Have family home evening

-Figure out my plan for school

-Trips, trips, trips :)

-learn more dinner recipes

-Have an even better relationship with the hubs

-Do lots of things before kids

Ultimately I just want to have to best year with great memories. Can't wait!

Christmas Festivities

Christmas this year started out a little early for Jake and I. We were able to go on a little date night to the Hale Center Theater, and see the famous play A Christmas Carol. We went a week before Christmas and it was so much fun. We ended our night with a lovely little dinner at Apollo Burger.  

Since my grandma Virginia passed away a year ago and she was the Christmas QUEEN, my grandpa decided he would keep traditions alive and throw a Christmas party. It was so cute he was really excited, and my sister Kylie basically put together the whole thing and it was AWESOME! We even had Mr and Mrs Claus come visit ;) 

As I posted earlier two of my best friends came home. So we decided to have a girls night making gingerbread houses. We had Christmas music playing and it was perfect... until my "going to be" mansion gingerbread house fell apart (worthless)! so I gave up and created a plain and boring one. 

Than we had Christmas on the 23 with Jake's family. It was a lot of fun, and sure enough Bubba was very spoiled. 

Than last but not least Christmas with my family. We had such a blast on Christmas eve. Jake, Bubba, and I stayed the night at my parents and woke up early to go see what Santa had brought us. It was such a fun day. My hubbie definitely spoiled me. Unfortunately my camera died on Christmas Eve so my mom has them all but have no fear I have some!

when I realized I had just bought this exact same thing a week prior

Inside Joke

My Niece is DEFINITELY the cutest

right before beddie bye

An Eeyore kind of day

I have this dream. The same dream I've had since 7th grade.
All I have wanted to be since I can remember was a Nurse. I wanted to be the one who actually cares for their patients and enjoys their job. I was even more positive about this fact when my nephew passed away and I saw nurses help my sister and husband. When I took my CNA course I loved all that I learned. Even now working as a CNA, everyday I go into work I remember why I am attempting this dream.

I have this dream. It's a little harder to reach than I thought. I had plans originally to go to UVU and get into their nursing program. Those dreams were shattered when I failed my first semester of college. I decided to find a different route. That route was Provo College. I looked into the possibilities. It wasn't until I had a friend that loved the program and told me how great it was that I was convinced on going their. Finally, my dreams were becoming a reality.

I found out all the pre-requisites I needed for their nursing program. There was a downside by doing my nursing through them I would be paying a whopping total of $50,000 dollars for nursing school. But than I found if I did all my pre-req's at UVU I would be paying much less.

So these 7 months I was getting in majority of my classes done to go to Provo. The game plan was to take Anatomy, and Physiology in January at Provo College. Than summer semester take Chemistry at Provo and Math at UVU. During the summer I could apply to the nursing program and get accepted in for August and graduate with my nursing degree December 2013. I just had to take a CPAT test which assessed my reading, literacy, and math comprehension.

CPAT= HELL


In order for Provo to accept me I had to pass the CPAT with a score of 160 and I had 3 chances. First time I scored a 159... let me repeat that a 159. She explained that I did great on the reading and literacy it was just the math that I really struggled with (story of my life). I had to wait 24 hrs before I could take the test again. So the next week I went in and took it once again. I got a 150. I was so close to passing I could taste it. But this time was a little more discouraging. I had to wait 30 days and I went home crying. But my spirits weren't shot yet.

Today I went to Provo to take the test for the THIRD time. I was very stressed and worried. I even had Jake and my dad give me a blessing. I said a bajillion prayers. I finished up and was extremely worried cause I barely got through the math section and had to guess on a lot. Sure enough my score ended up being 156.

I have felt like Eeyore all day. I can't stop bawling and I feel worthless. I seriously feel so stupid and not up to par. My dream is sitting there right in front of me and I can taste it, yet my abilities aren't good enough. I honestly do believe and know it to be true, that things are supposed to happen for a reason. But I don't understand this one. I keep trying to see the big picture but its not easy. I know my Heavenly Father has a plan for me but I can't figure out what it is. I don't know how to pickup and move on. I certainly don't know where to go from here.

For now, I'm trying not to think about it so I can enjoy my New Years weekend. I am thinking of possibilies to do. I have plans to Nanny for my friend on the day I would have been going to school. I may also retake some classes to get better grades in or do more math classes. But for now I am at a loss. I am going out with the hubb's and going to try to make this Eeyore kind of day, much better. Wish me luck!

*Ideas or thoughts are greatly appreciated!

The Year of 2011

All in words  just kidding, that would be punishment in most countries. 

This is going to be picture OVERLOAD. A few pictures from my year, some

of my favorites, some of my not-so favorites. You may even see some

pretty scary things, you haven't before, or things you already have. Either way,

Enjoy!