September and October

Life has been crazy. As always very busy and very fun! We got iPhones in Sept. when the new ones have come out so all my pictures have been coming from there. So I thought I would show you through pictures what we have been doing since September.

Sometimes with life being so crazy I never get to see some of my friends from high school. This is Lisa and baby York and I was so thrilled when they both came to visit me for a couple hours! It helped with the melancoly.

I have been wanting to go to Sushi house for awhile and Jake likes to go just with more than the two of us! So we suckered in Brandon and Kylie to accompany us! It was BOMB! 

At the end of September, I was released from my calling in the Primary Presidency. It was a very sad day. I was only just called in April. But our ward split so my calling had to too! I was so grateful though for the chance to be in this calling. I grew to love the kids so much and I made 3 new friends with the girls in the presidency! This picture is thank you cards from some of the kids :)

I went to the dentist in Sept. He told me I needed to fix BOTH my root canals, take out my wisdom, and fix my cavities. So I decided that why not do it all in one session. I was a rough weekend. I am finally on the up and up!

I have had the brown boots on the left for YEARS! I found a cute cheap pair and bought them, and sad to say I am so happy I got rid of my old ones!

My friend Heidi and I went to the Carrie Underwood concert! IT WAS AMAZING! Seriously it was the second best concert I have ever been to. (Celine Dion was the first...obviously) She had 6 costume changes and got in this hot air balloon thing that came over the crowd. She did so good! She is even better LIVE!

My sister owns a Condo, and she had a really awful renter, who than died. So we went and gutted it out and painted. Fun?

Saddest day, my kindle broke. After a week or two Amazon replaced it, free of charge. No more withdrawals.

The Bunco girls celebrated the Vampire Diaries movie premier in style. We all brought treats and together and watched the first episode of season 4. TEAM Stefan!

This cute man of mine brought me flowers and a Jamba one Saturday while i worked! It made my week!

Supporting the T-wolves. 

Embracing this weather as happy as can be. Complete with snow, caramel apples, and hot cocoa!

After my wisdom teeth removal we replaced on of the crowns over it. I was literally in that dentist chair once a week for 5 weeks. But no more!!

Last weekend a couple of girls from work and I all went up to the Witch Festival in Gardner Village. It was so much fun to dress up like Witches and go look in all the shops and grab a bite to eat. After we went to the  Witch Palooza show, and it was hilarious! It was a great night!

I'm probably getting annoying!

But this is another post about infertility. But I figured you guys have come this far! Why not just take you on the complete journey? 

So I did my first round of Chlomid and I was very hopeful and yet not. I was scheduled to start my period on Sunday, the 21st. On Wednesday, the 17th I was laying in bed with Jake and said "I don't think Chlomid worked this month, I think I am going to start my period." We talked about it and I decided we would just see. The next day, I woke up, and I don't know why but I just KNEW I was going to start my period and I started to crying. I had the symptoms at the same time I do every month. And I knew it was bound to happen. I know that a lot of pregnancy symptoms are similar to period symptoms, but I have studied the affects of my body and how it works with cycles for far too long to not know! Anyways, (I trail on so much) I text my mom and sister Kylie. And told them the same thing I told Jake. My mom text me for awhile and told me my time would come soon. Kylie however called me. I was at school so I couldn't talk. After I left school at 12:50 I talked and sobbed with her on the phone till I drove home at 1:30. (There is a point to THIS story I promise)

She started telling me how she read in the scriptures the other night in Moroni about having Faith. In my head I thought yeah yeah I have heard this before. I have faith! Well than she made the point that I need to have faith that this will happen some day for me, that I got to have faith in the savior. Cause it will happen, some day. Even if it comes to worse case scenario and we have to adopt and we adopt this baby that comes from an awful home, that's what the lord has in store for us. I just need to put all my faith in trust in him that he will do this for us, one way or the other. And to be honest I am still figuring out how to do that, but I have already seen a difference in how I feel about things. Which brings me to part #3

Saturday night my period came. As I knew it would. Now normally the past 4 months I would break down crying and would go into some form of depression. But this time, I just felt sad. Sad cause it didn't happen. But I was okay with it. Cause for the first time I realized it will happen one way or the other cause my Savior loves us and wants to give us our righteous desires. It's still hard but not unbearable. So today, was day 3 and I needed to start on my second round of Chlomid but before they can give you a second dose they have to examine your vaheena monster and make sure no animals are growing (or something like that ;)) After the invasion she prescribed me on 100 mg of Chlomid which is double than last month (which also means higher chance of doubles) and told me if this month doesn't work they will put me on a higher prescription and than also add in HCG shots, and take ultrasounds very often to see what is going on. So its gonna be fun. 

So here is the sum of it all, I love Kylie my sister also known as #7 with all my heart, for explaining to me in a way I understand what everyone has been trying to tell me.

I would be a crazy lady with twins. 

The church is true!

How to be {grateful} in a hard situation.

Lately, I have been a grump! About EVERYTHING! I hate it! I am not that person, and I don't want to be that person. But sometimes hormones get the best of me. Especially added hormones. For instance, I have been mean to people I love, and care about. I don't mean to. I am not happy for people who announce their pregnant. Especially when they are like "oh it was an accident". I wanna be happy for these people. I mean that is so awesome for them that they get to experience that, I mean I really do! And its not all people, but its most. (My friend Laura just told us she is pregnant and I am actually REALLY REALLY excited for her, so see I am NOT that cold hearted) ANYWAYS! The point is I just feel like lately I am Scrooge/Mr. Wilson/The Grinch but guess what, they all turn out good by the end of the story...so there is hope for me yet. 

But today happened, I also think my hormones are settling down. I was at my parents house and one of the neighbors who is a friend and I just started talking. My sister told her how we wanted to use her cake decorating skills in the future for Gender Reveal cakes. She started saying how she was also thinking about having her second child. (Side note: This lady is AMAZING! She tried to get pregnant for 9 years and was about to go in for blood work for IVF after all that time and found out she was pregnant! So now she has a 7 year old girl. She also did Chlomid and said she was a royal B on it too!) So anyways we were just talking about it and she made this comment "But I will have you know that my husband and I became the BEST of friends in those nine years, cause all we had was each other and it was such a struggle." I like died and fell in love with what she said. It literally just made me so grateful that A) we haven't been trying for 9 years or even 5 years just 16 months. B) That she just learned to make a positive out of her relationship. It made me feel grateful really that Jake and I have had almost 2 years of marriage just us. and that we get to enjoy each others presence till we have a baby. It makes me feel like if I have to do this for the long haul I can with my best friend and eternal companion by my side. 

So the moral of the story is I am learning to be grateful and less "beast like" in this trial in my life. So please bear with me in the mean time :)

Weekend of Fun!

A couple weeks ago, my sisters and I had made a plan to go down to St. George for the weekend. Well it didn't end up working out, so we decided to go to Disneyland instead...also didn't work out. So we finally came up with having an overnighter in my sisters back yard. Which was crazy and fun!

We started off the weekend on Friday by going to my brother's football game, and cheering him on. At the time they were undeafeted and since my brother is a Senior these may be the last football games we see him in. All of the sisters came, my brother in law Brandon, my parents, and of course Jake and I.

Isn't he a cutie?? Sorry ladies he leaves on his mission the second he graduates!! I love that he is my LITTLE brother and he is twice my size!

The next day was Saturday, so 2 of my 3 sisters went with all the kids to The Life of Timothy Green. If you haven't seen it, its a must. Such a tear jerker. After we went to my sister Jamie's house and roasted hot dogs and smores over the campfire. Mmm my kind of night. We set up a tent for the kids in the backyard and we ladies slept inside. The sisters played games, talked and watched cooking shows while the kids were outside watching a movie. The next morning we woke up and made coconut french toast. Perfect ending!

Witch, Ghouls, and Goblins

My favorite holiday to decorate for is Halloween! Okay so it really is Christmas but Halloween comes second! I love Halloween its such a fun holiday, and this year were Jake, Bubba, and I are all going to dress up as one!! So excited! And this year I got a lot more decorations but I tried to make almost all of them! So enjoy these pics!

This year I wanted to make these adorable letters from Wood Connection! I loved them I made this for only twenty dollars and it was so easy!!

And of course the Halloween wreath! Startin to love the spooky feel we have!! Can't wait for Halloween and our ADORABLE COSTUMES