But today happened, I also think my hormones are settling down. I was at my parents house and one of the neighbors who is a friend and I just started talking. My sister told her how we wanted to use her cake decorating skills in the future for Gender Reveal cakes. She started saying how she was also thinking about having her second child. (Side note: This lady is AMAZING! She tried to get pregnant for 9 years and was about to go in for blood work for IVF after all that time and found out she was pregnant! So now she has a 7 year old girl. She also did Chlomid and said she was a royal B on it too!) So anyways we were just talking about it and she made this comment "But I will have you know that my husband and I became the BEST of friends in those nine years, cause all we had was each other and it was such a struggle." I like died and fell in love with what she said. It literally just made me so grateful that A) we haven't been trying for 9 years or even 5 years just 16 months. B) That she just learned to make a positive out of her relationship. It made me feel grateful really that Jake and I have had almost 2 years of marriage just us. and that we get to enjoy each others presence till we have a baby. It makes me feel like if I have to do this for the long haul I can with my best friend and eternal companion by my side.
So the moral of the story is I am learning to be grateful and less "beast like" in this trial in my life. So please bear with me in the mean time :)