Thursday, September 18, 2014

Injections, Fears, and Other Ramblings

After IVIG it was just a waiting game. What's been nice about the FET route rather then IVF is I only have to do half the steps, half the waiting, half the work, and half the injections. I say its a plus all around! On day 11 of my cycle they wanted me to start tracking my Ovulation. Last time I had to go in for ultrasounds every other day and I saw a lot of this:
Did I mention they are Vaginal Ultrasounds?
But luckily this time I did it the easier way and just bought a $16 predictor kit and tracked it that way! So much easier, much more convenient, and less invasive. So this time around I saw a lot of this:

On Tuesday I was on day 14 of my cycle and they told me to come in for an ultrasound and blood work so they could see where my levels were. This would determine the exact time they implant my eggs. So the big day is going to be Monday the 22 at 10:30 am. I am going to implant two eggs and then I am on strict bed rest that day and the next. 
This is one of my embryo's from last time! Isn't it the cutest?
I also took a "trigger shot" that tells my body to ovulate and be ready at a very specific time. I also start taking shots of injections today. Injections you may think are the worst part, and yes they do suck a BIG one but it really isn't that bad! 
I will tell you what the worst part is. The emotions. I am a very emotional person already but then throw in some hormones and I get even worse. Yesterday is when my fears set in a little bit. I started to get really sick and scared about the day I get my beta test and find out if it worked. This is something I have to fight every single minute of every day. I have to fight stress cause its not good on a body trying to create a babe. I have to fight doubt, cause I have to have faith that it will work. I fight negative thoughts and try to put positive vibes. Its honestly the hardest part of this whole process for me. And it doesn't make it easier that so much is riding on it! But yesterday was really hard and my sweet friend Jensenne told me when I told I was doing this again that I should ask Jake for blessings EVERY chance I need them. So when he came home from work I instantly asked for one. I felt better again. I feel good today other then basic things in life that are hard or annoying but I am SO ready for monday! I feel like its happening so fast but I am so ready. 

Keep praying for the Frahms! Thanks everyone!