Today I was at Mark and Leslee's when she told me that Ashton's Birth mom had written me a letter. I was kinda nervous when I heard that, but I am so glad she did. It was short, sweet, and perfect. I cry every time I read it. It's personal but I feel comfortable enough to share it on the blog as part of our adoption journal.
Let me start by saying, I have written many letters to try and express my feelings and gratitude to you, so I hope this is the best context. I don't know if you truly understand how grateful I am for the both of you. I have so much love and respect for you and I have no idea who you are!
In the beginning I was so heart broken and angry, with myself of course, but with time, everyday it gets a little easier. Don't get me wrong, I still cry at the thought of him and his pictures, but I'm content knowing he is loving home, with two amazing parents who can do meet his every needs.
When Ashton was first born I was in a program and we had to write a list of 100 things we wanted to do before we died. A bucket list. On that list I had written that I wanted to give a family the gift of a child. I honestly feel I can cross that off my list, although it was not how I pictured, its happened.
I do not know what the future holds, if he'll ever know who I am, but I can only hope that I can stay in contact with you as he gets older and progresses in life. You are both two amazing people, you'll always have a place in my heart. I couldn't have asked for better people. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart. I am very grateful for you. I know he is doing well. Will you hug and kiss him for me? I love him. Happy Holidays! Thank you again.